Sigh...

Barely one week after I said that this will be a work-life balanced year, I am feeling super tired, drained and grouchy from work again.

Granted, it might be due to the fact that I'm starting work in a brand new place and hence the need to adopt a steep learning curve all over again. I recalled that when I first joined the service, I was also feeling the same level of stress.

But it could also be due to the fact that I really want to have a proper family life. To be able to cook when I get home, to relax and watch TV, and to just... enjoy life.

And hence, the question of whether I chose the wrong industry to be in. It's a stupid question, I know, because I deliberately asked for a transfer of service to specialise in this field.

But then, do I want to do comms work in the long run? I seriously don't know. I have come to realise that this is a field which requires one to be on alert 24/7. But I value personal time a lot, and I am not sure if I want my weekends to be burnt, e.g. when crisis happens, when media ask questions etc.

Or perhaps, time to re-look at moving to somewhere where the kind of issues to deal with are less major and time sensitive, but where my skills will still be recognised?

Decisions... decisions... I know clearly where my priority lies, but am bounded by obligations. Whatever the path may be, I have one year to consider. In the meantime, work beckons...