Not sure if it is a good or a bad thing but I find myself increasingly placing less priority on work. Like, I was hoping that I could find a paper over the weekend but the need to do some church-related stuff and the desire to spend some time with hubs and in-laws overweighed the guilt of not starting on that paper which should have been done last week. That is on top of knowing the fact that I would probably be swarmed with two speeches and other overdue matters this week, and that I will be taking leave on Friday and next Monday. Argh. I am so dead.
Maybe I will just lunch in for the rest of the week and try to work as efficiently as I can.
加油加油！
Sunday, June 5, 2011
Sunday, May 29, 2011
Tanjong Pagar Railway Station
I love places with a rich history and an old world charm. So when the newspapers reported that people are flocking to the Tanjong Pagar Railway Station before its closure on 1 July 2011, I texted hubs right away and said "Can we please please go take some photos, like this Saturday!"
Ok my photography skills ain't fantastic (seriously... and maybe I shan't even say that what I have are "skills".. oops)! But I do love taking photos of old buildings. Or to be specific, photos of people with old buildings. And I love posing or taking photos of people posing. Teehee. So here goes:
Ok my photography skills ain't fantastic (seriously... and maybe I shan't even say that what I have are "skills".. oops)! But I do love taking photos of old buildings. Or to be specific, photos of people with old buildings. And I love posing or taking photos of people posing. Teehee. So here goes:
Thursday, May 26, 2011
just another random day
Had a so-so day at work. Simply couldn't concentrate cos of all the emails that are flying everywhere and the follow-ups that need to be done. In the midst of all the mess, thank God I had sane colleagues to rely on, not-so-sane ones to laugh with/at, and just sufficient energy to get through the day. Indeed, Jesus is the rock!
(Did this in class today. Suppose to practise for children's camp two weeks from now. Haha. Am such a "sucker" for these things. Oh when will I ever ever grow up!) :)
By me:
By Mr. Jang (yes this big man loves hearts):
(Did this in class today. Suppose to practise for children's camp two weeks from now. Haha. Am such a "sucker" for these things. Oh when will I ever ever grow up!) :)
By me:
By Mr. Jang (yes this big man loves hearts):
Tuesday, May 24, 2011
我的幸福
我,是幸福的.
我没有来自富有的家庭,却在很有爱和温暖的家庭长大.
我并不是很漂亮,但至少是健康的,也有健全的双手双脚,可以做很多喜欢做的东西.
我也不算是冰雪聪明,但后天的努力补上,亦可算是勤奋的一个人.
我,真的感恩.
因为我所谓的幸福, 已经得到了.
谢谢身边的每一个人. 也谢谢天上的爸爸.
Random au naturel photo: Loving the mask that SIL gave... heehee..
我没有来自富有的家庭,却在很有爱和温暖的家庭长大.
我并不是很漂亮,但至少是健康的,也有健全的双手双脚,可以做很多喜欢做的东西.
我也不算是冰雪聪明,但后天的努力补上,亦可算是勤奋的一个人.
我,真的感恩.
因为我所谓的幸福, 已经得到了.
谢谢身边的每一个人. 也谢谢天上的爸爸.
Random au naturel photo: Loving the mask that SIL gave... heehee..
Friday, May 20, 2011
The wind of change at work
I don't think things could have been more dramatic. Within a short span of three days, I received news, piece by piece, that all of my bosses except one are moving to some other places. It's like sitting at home on a sofa and watching as a hurricane blows first your roof top and then the second storey away.
I don't think my heart can drop any lower, cos for all the stuff I have said about work, the frustrations and all, from the bottom of my heart, I sincerely think that they are nice people despite giving us a lot of work.
Sigh.
And I think Boss knew especially that once she is gone, I will be planning my Great Escape (Part 3). No more Boss to keep an eye on me or advise me to stay on. Should I make my move finally, and will I get third time lucky?
I am feeling anxious, excited, worried, resigned and a bit spaced out at the same time. Hmmm...
I don't think my heart can drop any lower, cos for all the stuff I have said about work, the frustrations and all, from the bottom of my heart, I sincerely think that they are nice people despite giving us a lot of work.
Sigh.
And I think Boss knew especially that once she is gone, I will be planning my Great Escape (Part 3). No more Boss to keep an eye on me or advise me to stay on. Should I make my move finally, and will I get third time lucky?
I am feeling anxious, excited, worried, resigned and a bit spaced out at the same time. Hmmm...
Sunday, May 15, 2011
11th attempt at sharing
Sermon 15 May 2011
Scripture: Luke 11:37-54
Theme: What destroys our ministry to unbelievers?
A person's motives, although not apparent to Man, are obvious to God.
Some are self-seeking, self-absorbing and self-glorifying, seeking praises of men rather than the praises of God through an over-focus on rituals and protocols. We engage in spiritual hypocrisies when our outward devotions are for show and do not come from within.
Sometimes we also get carried away by our own convictions. This sense of self-righteousness, which is deceitful and a misrepresentation of the intention of God, will cause believers to stumble and unbelievers to turn away. We should not be judgmental or be critical of others, or worse, make unfair assumptions of unbelievers. While we have various theological convictions, we must not force our convictions on others. We must not forget the big picture of God's love, or doing God's work together in different ways.
We must learn to stop seeing ourselves in the eyes of others. We must let go, trust God and receive criticism with humility. Learn to encourage one another, giving each other love, comfort and hope in God.
Pleasing God begins with a self-examination!
Scripture: Luke 11:37-54
Theme: What destroys our ministry to unbelievers?
A person's motives, although not apparent to Man, are obvious to God.
Some are self-seeking, self-absorbing and self-glorifying, seeking praises of men rather than the praises of God through an over-focus on rituals and protocols. We engage in spiritual hypocrisies when our outward devotions are for show and do not come from within.
Sometimes we also get carried away by our own convictions. This sense of self-righteousness, which is deceitful and a misrepresentation of the intention of God, will cause believers to stumble and unbelievers to turn away. We should not be judgmental or be critical of others, or worse, make unfair assumptions of unbelievers. While we have various theological convictions, we must not force our convictions on others. We must not forget the big picture of God's love, or doing God's work together in different ways.
We must learn to stop seeing ourselves in the eyes of others. We must let go, trust God and receive criticism with humility. Learn to encourage one another, giving each other love, comfort and hope in God.
Pleasing God begins with a self-examination!
Tuesday, May 3, 2011
God's Phone Number
Hello God, I called tonight
To talk a little while
I need a friend who'll listen
To my anxiety and trial.
You see, I can't quite make it
Through a day just on my own...
I need your love to guide me,
So I'll never feel alone.
I want to ask you please to keep,
My family safe and sound.
Come and fill their lives with confidence
For whatever fate they're bound.
Give me faith, dear God, to face
Each hour throughout the day,
And not to worry over things
I can't change in any way.
I thank you God, for being home
And listening to my call,
For giving me such good advice
When I stumble and fall.
Your number, God, is the only one
That answers every time.
I never get a busy signal,
Never had to pay a dime.
So thank you, God, for listening
To my troubles and my sorrow.
Good night, God, I love You, too,
And I'll call again tomorrow!
- from unknown
Saturday, April 16, 2011
my guitar history
New guitar at $288, thanks to Lil & Andrew's recommendation.
I bought my first guitar when I was in the university. My cousin Bob was in S'pore for a month and I wanted to learn from him. The interest died after he went back to HK. I sold the guitar away to a friend shortly after.
My second guitar was bought together with hubs. One of my ex-colleagues asked if we were interested to learn guitar together at the CC, and I thought why not? And so I bought the second one. After I completed one course (8 lessons), I stopped. BIL subsequently borrowed it cos he wanted to self-learn. Think he also gave up after a while. The guitar is now sitting in one corner of the storeroom. I didn't pick it up again cos I thought it's too big for a girl, maybe.
And now, I bought my third guitar - it's of a smaller size compared to the standard one. I have no idea how long my interest will last this time round. As usual, my bimbotic self told me to buy it cos it's got a really nice finish and the bag (that comes with it) is cream-coloured and looks prettier compared to the usual black plastic-ky looking ones.
I suppose I should set a goal for myself. To play simple songs at cell group? To play simple songs at home and get Mr. Jang to sing along? ^o^ Already, he feels that I have too many so-called "hobbies" or interest (which is not untrue). Oh well, pray pray pray that I have the time, passion, and patience to practice. Else, it might just end up as an "art piece" in my new living room, like so many things before it. Aha.
Monday, April 11, 2011
Almonn, 加油!!
Left office on time today cos I needed to bring Almonn to the vet. Gaga said her PIL and MIL observed that his hind legs are getting a bit weak, and he looked wobbly when he went for walks. So I went to the vet to check his state of health and to see if his wobbly legs are normal.
Turned out that his hind legs are really responding much slower than his front legs. An X-ray check showed that it's not a slip disc, so it might possibly be a growth, in another words, cancer. To be honest, I was very calm when the vet told me that. I only asked what my options are if it is really the case. Treatment, surgery or what? It did dawn on me that cancer will likely lead to death, especially when Almonn is considered an old dog already.
As I sat outside waiting for Almonn to come out (I could hear him yelping inside), thoughts of leading a life without Almonn came. Am shameful to say that I haven't really paid attention to him for the past few years. Didn't play with him even though he always come with his ball and his eager eyes, didn't bring him out for walks even though we have time, we even purposely tease him with "do you want to go out?" and get him all excited then the next moment we shut him back in the kitchen and say "bye bye!". We are bad owners! But he is always there. Sometimes he attempts to bite us... but most of the time he will just sit there and look at us. I always wonder if he is trying to ask us something, like "when are we going out again?"
Almonn my dear little buddy, I know you are staying strong. I think we are quite alike, sometimes we feel pain inside but we don't want to show it out and display a aloof nonchalant self instead cos we don't want to bother others. Oh well, know that I am proud of you all these years! And I think you are the most handsome dog I know! Keep your spirits up and you can fight off anything!!
Turned out that his hind legs are really responding much slower than his front legs. An X-ray check showed that it's not a slip disc, so it might possibly be a growth, in another words, cancer. To be honest, I was very calm when the vet told me that. I only asked what my options are if it is really the case. Treatment, surgery or what? It did dawn on me that cancer will likely lead to death, especially when Almonn is considered an old dog already.
As I sat outside waiting for Almonn to come out (I could hear him yelping inside), thoughts of leading a life without Almonn came. Am shameful to say that I haven't really paid attention to him for the past few years. Didn't play with him even though he always come with his ball and his eager eyes, didn't bring him out for walks even though we have time, we even purposely tease him with "do you want to go out?" and get him all excited then the next moment we shut him back in the kitchen and say "bye bye!". We are bad owners! But he is always there. Sometimes he attempts to bite us... but most of the time he will just sit there and look at us. I always wonder if he is trying to ask us something, like "when are we going out again?"
Almonn my dear little buddy, I know you are staying strong. I think we are quite alike, sometimes we feel pain inside but we don't want to show it out and display a aloof nonchalant self instead cos we don't want to bother others. Oh well, know that I am proud of you all these years! And I think you are the most handsome dog I know! Keep your spirits up and you can fight off anything!!
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
Balloon ministry
This week's children ministry is on the use of balloons to convey your message to the kids. For the first time in my life, I managed to twist a doggie, a "gospel" flower, a snake, a bee, and two apples. My fingers hurt and my nails were scratched at the end of the lesson. But I think it's sooooooo cool. Too bad Mr. Jang was at work and couldn't make it. He missed out so much fun! 
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
Mission failed again!
And so, to cut the long story short, my second attempt at The Great Escape plan failed... am feeling a tad sad that I didn't accept it in the end (and I know I will forever be wondering what if I had?)... but having said I am not giving up totally and am still staying open to whatever opportunities that may come.
I was encouraged by Faye the other day. James 1: 6-8: 6 But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. 7 That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord; 8 he is a double-minded man, unstable in all he does.
I have sought the Lord's directions through praying, talking to family, and listening to advice. Now I shall learn to believe and not doubt the decision. Jiayou jiayou!
I was encouraged by Faye the other day. James 1: 6-8: 6 But when he asks, he must believe and not doubt, because he who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. 7 That man should not think he will receive anything from the Lord; 8 he is a double-minded man, unstable in all he does.
I have sought the Lord's directions through praying, talking to family, and listening to advice. Now I shall learn to believe and not doubt the decision. Jiayou jiayou!
This is our washing machine! :)
The first piece of essential furniture (official) for our new house: Fisher & Paykel Smart Drive GWC12. A fully featured autowasher powered by the unique Smart Drive System. It is designed to preserve natural resources, offering auto water level, two water saver options and a favourite cycle for the ultimate in customisation... oh who cares, I bought it cos I think the design is nice.
Friday, March 25, 2011
the complain culture?
Many peeps are complaining about the house after they have received their keys. Cracked ceilings, cracked toilet bowls, gaps in the tiles etc. Ok lah. Maybe there are really defects in the house. The developer would have to fix them.
To complain about the wardrobe, the inward swinging grill, the colour of the tiles though... erm... peeps, didn't you already know that at the time when you purchased the house? I mean, if you don't like them in the first place, then don't buy the house, or make plans to change them after you get your house loh. No need to complain now mah. Unless, complaining has really become a bad national habit, like what they say?
For me, I am just thankful to be able to have a decent enough house, in a decent enough area. Many people our age in other countries probably couldn't afford a place that they could call their own. Most are just renting flats at exorbitant prices.
So my fellow young countrymen, don't complain anymore. If there are defects in the house, just point them out and be patient while the developer fixes them. For the rest of the items that are not done to your liking, just change them when you do the renovation.
Let's learn to cope with imperfections and find concrete solutions to them instead of complaining. It'll certainly make the country (and the world) a better place to live in.
To complain about the wardrobe, the inward swinging grill, the colour of the tiles though... erm... peeps, didn't you already know that at the time when you purchased the house? I mean, if you don't like them in the first place, then don't buy the house, or make plans to change them after you get your house loh. No need to complain now mah. Unless, complaining has really become a bad national habit, like what they say?
For me, I am just thankful to be able to have a decent enough house, in a decent enough area. Many people our age in other countries probably couldn't afford a place that they could call their own. Most are just renting flats at exorbitant prices.
So my fellow young countrymen, don't complain anymore. If there are defects in the house, just point them out and be patient while the developer fixes them. For the rest of the items that are not done to your liking, just change them when you do the renovation.
Let's learn to cope with imperfections and find concrete solutions to them instead of complaining. It'll certainly make the country (and the world) a better place to live in.
Tuesday, March 22, 2011
Aaaaaaand the house has FINALLY ARRIVED!!!!
Went sniffing around the house like a puppy once Mr. Jang opened the door to our very first house. It wasn't fantastic (some of the finishing need to be touched up and the master bedroom was a tad too small for my liking) but hey, its OUR HOUSE!!!!! This is where we are gonna be for the next 5-8 years at least, I suppose?
Omg... What are we going to do? It's like being brought in front of a big white canvas and being asked to crack your brains to draw something that you would have to stare at for the next 5-8 years. Where should we start? What should we do? How are we going to visualise what it's gonna look like? What if we make bad decisions and live to regret it later on?
This whole process of design and renovation has been put on the back burner because we always say "wait for the house to come first" or "we must see how it looks like first". Now that it is here, right before our eyes, what should our next step be?
To be continued (soon I hope)...
(P/S: Tried using my body to measure the size of the bed. Have been eyeing the canopy bed in Ikea for some time now. Think it might hit the ceiling?)
Omg... What are we going to do? It's like being brought in front of a big white canvas and being asked to crack your brains to draw something that you would have to stare at for the next 5-8 years. Where should we start? What should we do? How are we going to visualise what it's gonna look like? What if we make bad decisions and live to regret it later on?
This whole process of design and renovation has been put on the back burner because we always say "wait for the house to come first" or "we must see how it looks like first". Now that it is here, right before our eyes, what should our next step be?
To be continued (soon I hope)...
(P/S: Tried using my body to measure the size of the bed. Have been eyeing the canopy bed in Ikea for some time now. Think it might hit the ceiling?)
Saturday, March 19, 2011
陪著你走 - 盧冠廷
An all time favourite dedicated to hubs Mr. Jang who is still working hard in the office at 1.30am.
One of my childhood friends put up the modern edition on FB today, but I found the original version. The lyrics of the song is written by the singer's wife. I shall translate it to English, keeping the gist of the song. :)
陪著你走 - 盧冠廷 (I will walk with you)
曲︰盧冠廷
詞︰唐書琛
編︰CHRIS BABIDA
誰說 時間片刻變陳舊
(who says that time will quickly become the past)
全為我分秒亦停留
(the seconds and minutes will stop for me)
因我 身邊有你緊握我的手
(because I have you beside me holding my hand)
這份愛 誰說永不會長壽
(who says this love will never last)
陪著你一生到白頭
(I will be with you for a lifetime till we grow old)
都能 把心中星星閃得通透
(we can still make the stars in our hearts shine brightly)
陪著你走 一生一世也不分
(I will walk with you and we will never be apart)
天天編出兩雙足印 過千山過千海
(we will create two pairs of footsteps everyday and cross thousands of mountains and seas)
如果 走到這世界邊端
(if we reach the end of the world)
我倆已是無力前行
(and we are both unable to walk any further)
跟我一起飛去
(please fly away together with me)
請你伴我同路去
(please keep me company along this journey)
One of my childhood friends put up the modern edition on FB today, but I found the original version. The lyrics of the song is written by the singer's wife. I shall translate it to English, keeping the gist of the song. :)
陪著你走 - 盧冠廷 (I will walk with you)
曲︰盧冠廷
詞︰唐書琛
編︰CHRIS BABIDA
誰說 時間片刻變陳舊
(who says that time will quickly become the past)
全為我分秒亦停留
(the seconds and minutes will stop for me)
因我 身邊有你緊握我的手
(because I have you beside me holding my hand)
這份愛 誰說永不會長壽
(who says this love will never last)
陪著你一生到白頭
(I will be with you for a lifetime till we grow old)
都能 把心中星星閃得通透
(we can still make the stars in our hearts shine brightly)
陪著你走 一生一世也不分
(I will walk with you and we will never be apart)
天天編出兩雙足印 過千山過千海
(we will create two pairs of footsteps everyday and cross thousands of mountains and seas)
如果 走到這世界邊端
(if we reach the end of the world)
我倆已是無力前行
(and we are both unable to walk any further)
跟我一起飛去
(please fly away together with me)
請你伴我同路去
(please keep me company along this journey)
Sunday, March 13, 2011
confessions of a young (?) workaholic
The past month has been crazy. And I mean crazily crazy. I was practically working non-stop day and night (yes, I managed to squeeze some breaks in-between but all I could remember was me with the laptop, the laptop with me, me with a whole lot of newspapers, a whole lot of newspapers with me). I vaguely remember having proper dinners, probably because even when I was having them, my mind was on the 101 things that I haven't finished or even started doing at work. The only think that I could remember was that thankfully, I got my butt out of the chair and jog a bit on a regularly basis.
Ok, I know. My workload is probably not the heaviest, I am probably not the hardest working one, there are a million out there who are doing more and working harder, and so I don't know why I am feeling grouchy. I really don't know... perhaps the frustrations of feeling that sometimes, the work that we do is not as value-adding? that sometimes, I am questioning the rationale and the need to do certain things? Heck, a lot of things. And perhaps, the meaning of why I joined the organisation in the first place is slowing fading away.
Don't get me wrong. I love working. I love the adrenaline of working towards something and the sense of satisfaction I get when I accomplished an assignment, like the one which has been handed down to me when my colleague suddenly resigned earlier this month. Love knowing that I gave my all to what I did. So again, I ask myself, "Hey woman, what's wrong with you ah? Early menopause?"
The search for answer is killing me, as I wait in suspense on what I would do next. It's like I don't know myself anymore... It's like swimming in fast currents without knowing where I will be going or more importantly, where I want to go. Should I just follow the flow or attempt to head towards another direction? I may only find the answer when I look back a fews years from now. In the meantime, the urgent task at hand is to keep my sanity as best as I could.
Ok, I know. My workload is probably not the heaviest, I am probably not the hardest working one, there are a million out there who are doing more and working harder, and so I don't know why I am feeling grouchy. I really don't know... perhaps the frustrations of feeling that sometimes, the work that we do is not as value-adding? that sometimes, I am questioning the rationale and the need to do certain things? Heck, a lot of things. And perhaps, the meaning of why I joined the organisation in the first place is slowing fading away.
Don't get me wrong. I love working. I love the adrenaline of working towards something and the sense of satisfaction I get when I accomplished an assignment, like the one which has been handed down to me when my colleague suddenly resigned earlier this month. Love knowing that I gave my all to what I did. So again, I ask myself, "Hey woman, what's wrong with you ah? Early menopause?"
The search for answer is killing me, as I wait in suspense on what I would do next. It's like I don't know myself anymore... It's like swimming in fast currents without knowing where I will be going or more importantly, where I want to go. Should I just follow the flow or attempt to head towards another direction? I may only find the answer when I look back a fews years from now. In the meantime, the urgent task at hand is to keep my sanity as best as I could.
Monday, February 14, 2011
Valentine's Day
Mr. Jang and I did the typical couple thing and went for a nice dinner at Amara Hotel this Valentine's Day. The food wasn't particularly fantastic but the ambience was nice.
This is neither my hand nor his. The food was cooked by a waitress (and hence it tasted better than if it would have been cooked by us)! :D
Check out the seafood pancake, which is quite yummy when dipped in the special sauce.
And what is Valentine's Day without a furry gift!! I may be, ahem, nearing thirties but I still love a cuddly toy. OK maybe not as much as before but I just can't resist My Melody. Kawaii ne!
Sunday, February 13, 2011
妈妈
有少许因为同事的妈妈也病了，所以我上个星期五请了假，除了去身体检验之外，还能陪妈妈逛一天。
从记忆开始，就只记得跟妈妈的关系不太好。当然有好玩的时候。但大多数只记得老是被骂，老是说我欺负姐姐、刁蛮、脾气不好。还记得有一次她很生气地说我为什么要令人讨厌，为什么这么没用。也许我小时候真的很调皮，可当时的打击也挺大的（要不然也不会到现在还记得）。长大后，或许因为成绩还不错的关系，妈妈常常“鼓励”我做某些事情、读某些科目。我也因为怕被骂再加上倔强，读到多辛苦也不出声，只敢哭着跟姐姐说。
就这样，我对妈妈，从小时候的害怕转移到长大后的不满。
大概十年前，妈妈患了癌症。当时第一个反应不是担心，而是内疚。我的性格跟姐姐很不一样，不喜欢过份表示关怀。也因为多年来习惯和妈妈对立，所以也只是站在一旁尴尬地尝试慰问。等她的病好转了，一切大概恢复正常。我也不像爸和姐姐一样，监督妈妈又没有定时吃药。
不晓得从何时开始，我发现妈妈老了很多。不只是外表，连行动思想也慢了许多。有好几次不耐烦地催妈妈“快D啦你！”、“怎么这样也想不起来？” 现在想想，应该是妈妈真的老了，不再是以前那个有力气常常骂我的人。所以，我现在也尝试放多点耐性。虽然这不是一件容易的事，特别是我为减少摩擦，习惯了与妈妈保持距离，要更改沟通方式，的确需要时间。
不过，同事妈妈的病，让我再次记得要珍惜身边的家人，无论他们可爱或不可爱，始终是家人。所以，就让大家尽力去珍惜。别等到最后才觉悟吧。
从记忆开始，就只记得跟妈妈的关系不太好。当然有好玩的时候。但大多数只记得老是被骂，老是说我欺负姐姐、刁蛮、脾气不好。还记得有一次她很生气地说我为什么要令人讨厌，为什么这么没用。也许我小时候真的很调皮，可当时的打击也挺大的（要不然也不会到现在还记得）。长大后，或许因为成绩还不错的关系，妈妈常常“鼓励”我做某些事情、读某些科目。我也因为怕被骂再加上倔强，读到多辛苦也不出声，只敢哭着跟姐姐说。
就这样，我对妈妈，从小时候的害怕转移到长大后的不满。
大概十年前，妈妈患了癌症。当时第一个反应不是担心，而是内疚。我的性格跟姐姐很不一样，不喜欢过份表示关怀。也因为多年来习惯和妈妈对立，所以也只是站在一旁尴尬地尝试慰问。等她的病好转了，一切大概恢复正常。我也不像爸和姐姐一样，监督妈妈又没有定时吃药。
不晓得从何时开始，我发现妈妈老了很多。不只是外表，连行动思想也慢了许多。有好几次不耐烦地催妈妈“快D啦你！”、“怎么这样也想不起来？” 现在想想，应该是妈妈真的老了，不再是以前那个有力气常常骂我的人。所以，我现在也尝试放多点耐性。虽然这不是一件容易的事，特别是我为减少摩擦，习惯了与妈妈保持距离，要更改沟通方式，的确需要时间。
不过，同事妈妈的病，让我再次记得要珍惜身边的家人，无论他们可爱或不可爱，始终是家人。所以，就让大家尽力去珍惜。别等到最后才觉悟吧。
Sunday, January 16, 2011
weirdo me
Because FB account has been "infiltrated" by loads of colleagues, I feel that I can only air my work-related grievances here. But this is going to sound really weird.
I am utterly frustrated and unhappy that I have to burn my weekday evenings and weekends for 4 consecutive days for piles of silly work that I have to do. I have been working non-stop since Wed. I haven't exactly talked to hubs, my mom (who's been here since Thu) or my sis for the entire 4 days. But on the other hand, I feel secretly proud of the fact that I have produced 2 CL speech (+submission), 1 EL speech (+submission), 80% of a "research" report, and 40% of a write-up over this short span of time. And I really feel that the quality of work is already done to the best of my ability.
And in the meantime, I am still harbouring thoughts of seeking a 出路。Working in the currently org is like being with a boyfriend who makes me feel secured, yet I don't know if I love him or not... but I do feel guilty cos the family members are really nice to me. And they are trying to make me feel reassured by telling me that marriage is on the cards.
Should I break up with this boyfriend, and go out to the unknown? A senior whom I spoke to outside the toilet the other day said he/she recommmends me to do so. They always make it sound like there are a lot of big, bad wolves out there, he/she said, but it is not true.
So, boyfriend boyfriend, we patch back for a while but is our relationship meant to last? I really don't know. Any maybe I really want to find out if I can last outside without your love and protection. And admittedly, I am scared that the thought, too. Being with you just give me too much of a sense of stability that I know I probably won't find elsewhere.
Sigh. And that's why they said love and relationships are complicated matters.
I am utterly frustrated and unhappy that I have to burn my weekday evenings and weekends for 4 consecutive days for piles of silly work that I have to do. I have been working non-stop since Wed. I haven't exactly talked to hubs, my mom (who's been here since Thu) or my sis for the entire 4 days. But on the other hand, I feel secretly proud of the fact that I have produced 2 CL speech (+submission), 1 EL speech (+submission), 80% of a "research" report, and 40% of a write-up over this short span of time. And I really feel that the quality of work is already done to the best of my ability.
And in the meantime, I am still harbouring thoughts of seeking a 出路。Working in the currently org is like being with a boyfriend who makes me feel secured, yet I don't know if I love him or not... but I do feel guilty cos the family members are really nice to me. And they are trying to make me feel reassured by telling me that marriage is on the cards.
Should I break up with this boyfriend, and go out to the unknown? A senior whom I spoke to outside the toilet the other day said he/she recommmends me to do so. They always make it sound like there are a lot of big, bad wolves out there, he/she said, but it is not true.
So, boyfriend boyfriend, we patch back for a while but is our relationship meant to last? I really don't know. Any maybe I really want to find out if I can last outside without your love and protection. And admittedly, I am scared that the thought, too. Being with you just give me too much of a sense of stability that I know I probably won't find elsewhere.
Sigh. And that's why they said love and relationships are complicated matters.
Sunday, January 9, 2011
First wedding anniversary celebration
I would use the word "adventurous" to describe our first wedding anniversary celebration.
What with losing our way (again!) at Pulau Ubin and taking what the guide described to be the toughest route... being scared to death by wild dogs fighting and the sudden unexpected appearance of a wild boar (wraggggggh!!!)... holding in my bladder as much as possible cos of the gigantic iguana in the toilet (grrr) ... and and and... just cycling round and round and taking loads of funny poseur photos and being totally oblivious to other tourists/visitors staring at us. (man, what's there to stare at huh?!) and of cos ending it all with a nice and simple zichar dinner at one of the "restaurants" (and going to Tampines to get camera stuff after that and of course to finally relieve myself)...
I enjoyed myself tremendously despite Mr. Jang's constant teasing about how I am not suited for Pulau Ubin, and that I always plan stuff to 自己吓自己. And all these are yet again reminders of why we are married. We poke fun at each other all the time. We laugh. We bicker. We make each other's blood boil. We wrestle. We pinch cheeks. We headlock etc etc... at the end of the day, it's a quiet understanding that we are free to talk about anything and be who we are without any barriers or restraints.
So here's to us... our first wedding anniversary. And many many more to come as we grow old together! When your skin is sagging, I will still be pinching your cheek. When I've forgotten who you are, you will still be poking fun at my planning. Wahaha... :)
Happy first anniversary dear. :D
What with losing our way (again!) at Pulau Ubin and taking what the guide described to be the toughest route... being scared to death by wild dogs fighting and the sudden unexpected appearance of a wild boar (wraggggggh!!!)... holding in my bladder as much as possible cos of the gigantic iguana in the toilet (grrr) ... and and and... just cycling round and round and taking loads of funny poseur photos and being totally oblivious to other tourists/visitors staring at us. (man, what's there to stare at huh?!) and of cos ending it all with a nice and simple zichar dinner at one of the "restaurants" (and going to Tampines to get camera stuff after that and of course to finally relieve myself)...
I enjoyed myself tremendously despite Mr. Jang's constant teasing about how I am not suited for Pulau Ubin, and that I always plan stuff to 自己吓自己. And all these are yet again reminders of why we are married. We poke fun at each other all the time. We laugh. We bicker. We make each other's blood boil. We wrestle. We pinch cheeks. We headlock etc etc... at the end of the day, it's a quiet understanding that we are free to talk about anything and be who we are without any barriers or restraints.
So here's to us... our first wedding anniversary. And many many more to come as we grow old together! When your skin is sagging, I will still be pinching your cheek. When I've forgotten who you are, you will still be poking fun at my planning. Wahaha... :)
Happy first anniversary dear. :D
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